Hmmm, finally, I sit down to write a bit. Haven’t done it for such a long time. I thought I’d do it yesterday, but, that day had sailed by. There is a simple question I have. You would surprise yourself how you’d answer it.
It feels I have an endless number of subjects to write about. And, indeed I do. However, my thoughts come to me in conversation. Conversation with myself or with others; inspiring people, who I feel are for me a kind of, active, interactive audience. Ah, and sometimes I even invent this audience in my head, for lack of physical bodies. I shall write about the answer to a question. Let us say that of all the people I asked this question, only two, said “Yes!”. First ever, I asked the question of myself. My answer was an unhesitant, rather prompt “Yes!”. It was all a monologue and it took a few seconds. I was awestruck! The idea of asking others the same question came immediately after. I was curious. I practiced on my friends that were there. I did not ask them all at once, but, one by one. The question is personal, intimate, powerful and decent. The only other one to ever say yes is Martine, a girl of about 20 summers young (at the time, a few years back), a girl with dimples and beautiful big eyes. I don’t know where she is now but I won’t ever forget her for that answer. I won’t forget that moment either. I asked many people before her and after. Everybody else but us two, over the last 14 years, had answered “No!”. What strikes me is that they say “No!”, they don’t like me asking, and, most, answer within 5 seconds. Then I asked myself, why do they all do that? I got one answer. Conditioning, the social conditioning of the human race, today. The instinct is lost to consciousness and it seldom, if ever, reconnects.